As of recently, I have been pondering on the question, “ Am I being honest with myself?”. I am not the type of person who deliberately lies, and certainly not to myself. Truth be know, I am one of those appalling people who has serious problems with telling lies. Although I can obviously do it, I have always ended up telling the truth even if it is a while later. If it was not for the fact that I have learned to be tactful, I do not think anyone would want to know me.
Nevertheless, I have been questioning myself about some of the motives I have for some of the things I am doing. I do not want to go father on the journey of what I am reaching for unless I am pursuing precisely what I truly want.
Sure this is Your Dream?
Often we go running up the hill of a challenge telling ourselves that what is at the top is what we want, when in actuality, we have gotten caught up in what someone else has told us. It could have been a sales pitch of sorts or something quite innocently stated by a dear friend. It does not matter which one it was. The point is that you are going up the wrong hill. What you find at the top is not what you want at all.
Motives Gone Amok
One set of my motives I have been thinking about intensely is about this blog of mine. I have been having the worst time getting my motives on the right track. Somehow I keep on switching to the track of gains that I really do not want to pursue.
People all over are telling or being told that success should be what you want it to be. Then these same people proceed to tell or closely listen to how public knowledge of self and riches can be made by this so-called success that must be pursued.
I know better than to fall for those stings, yet when the words seem so sincere and are coming from someone who appears to be so happy, I get hooked.
Obviously, I am feeling like a fool.
Although my husband and I are pinching pennies until they squeal, neither one of us are wishing and hoping that we had more money to spend. In fact, if we have more money, we would not know what to spend it on once we paid the monthly bills. Moreover, both of us like our solitude. The last thing we want is any sort of fame.
This is Me
All the pink you are seeing here is not me. I am just not a very pink female. Now that I think about it, I do not think I have a favorite color. My point is that I do not like the colors of my blog. Nor do I think I like the flower as part of my logo. In addition to not being a pink hag, I am also not a flower one either.
I am all for personal/self growth, but really now, how much can one talk about in this area? If I was writing a text book on the topic, sure, there is much more to say. With blogging though, it is not a good idea to get highly technical on any subject. I still have some things to say about self growth, but I want to discuss other things here as well. What do you think about the tag line saying, ‘Probing into the Inferences of Life’?
I love exploring. I feel the excitement build up in me as I poke around to see what is new or unusual. This fits my personality too. This is something that definitely can be done solo, but at the same time, can be shared with others. I can become the queen of information about nothing in particular.
The more I think about making these changes, the more enthusiastic I become. It will be such a relief not to worry about what the traffic stats are looking like, not to keep on trying to think of ways to make money with this blog, and, most important, to show you, the reader who I really am. Watch out!
Do any of you think I am off my rocker? Are you being honest with yourself?
Bring in your thoughts and opinions. I promise to reply.